The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire. -- Ferdinand Foch

I tried to read Fairy Tail once more, but I couldn't. I realized that I'm tired of shouen mangas, like Naruto/One Piece/Fairy Tail, since they're so freaking idealistic. Natsu once said that he would never let anyone sacrifice Lucy's (his friend) future, even though they were in a grave and desperate situation where Rogue accused (incorrectly) of Lucy blocking a very important step in saving the world and wants to kill her. I... on one hand, Natsu trusts his friend very very very much, the other hand he is being very selfish for the world. He is unwilling to sacrifice his friend's future, but willing to kill off the world' future? And, of course, in the end, everything works out well.

I guess this is not the type of manga for me then, because I hate it when people are so selfish and well the author himself supports this type of view, portraying them in a just light, and I'm just ugh.

Maybe that's why I prefer Shingeki no Kyojin 1000x than FT? Well, those two animes conflict in terms of values in so many different ways lol but the thing is that Shingeki is realistic in terms of battling methods- you must sacrifice many people's lives for the sake of the future and humanity because that's real life, while FT is all about trying not to sacrifice anyone's future, but if that couldn't be done, oh, fuck that, just don't sacrifice my friends' lives alright?

:/ I once loved Fairy Tail to death and it was the only anime that made me cry more than five times, but as the anime/manga progressed on I stopped crying and losing my tears because they are, to me, turning more and more selfish and Mashima actually supports them.

Oh well.

but their soundtrak is damn good

Saw this on kanon99's profile and I just had to repost it. Enjoy, be you Christian, Buddhist, Muslim, Jew, Hindu, or any other religion. <3

( please read for a little heartwarm. )

I have a confession to make.

Well, to begin, has anyone ever felt terrible when they look at their merchandises and doujins and see stacks of them on the bookshelves/displays? I mean, I keep track of my order and precisely how much I spend, and, really, I've been spending A LOT over this 8 months since I was introduced to the selling/trading community on LJ. And by that, I mean $500+. I'm too scared to pinpoint exactly how much I've been spending.

I feel terrible. This, I believe, must stop soon and if I keep doing this I'll fall into huge debt/make my life miserable. And that's not very pretty. I've been emptying my savings and... that's not good. So yeah. I'm being too wasteful, in short, and I should've known better than to be sucked up into buying all these items, only to sell them out at a much lower price and don't care later.

There.

after I receive a couple of more items I'm planning on reselling (bought a box of straps I no longer want) , I will no longer be purchasing doujins at all and will quit being a hetalia_sell member and any other selling communities, and will turn my attention to scanlations ONLY. I will also no longer be so active on LJ, Hetalia, and any other fandoms.

Oh, how I lose my mind in the things I love... it's scary and intimidating, now that I look back and see the destruction I caused over my desire.