pennilee: (not amused)
I tried to read Fairy Tail once more, but I couldn't. I realized that I'm tired of shouen mangas, like Naruto/One Piece/Fairy Tail, since they're so freaking idealistic. Natsu once said that he would never let anyone sacrifice Lucy's (his friend) future, even though they were in a grave and desperate situation where Rogue accused (incorrectly) of Lucy blocking a very important step in saving the world and wants to kill her. I... on one hand, Natsu trusts his friend very very very much, the other hand he is being very selfish for the world. He is unwilling to sacrifice his friend's future, but willing to kill off the world' future? And, of course, in the end, everything works out well.

I guess this is not the type of manga for me then, because I hate it when people are so selfish and well the author himself supports this type of view, portraying them in a just light, and I'm just ugh.

Maybe that's why I prefer Shingeki no Kyojin 1000x than FT? Well, those two animes conflict in terms of values in so many different ways lol but the thing is that Shingeki is realistic in terms of battling methods- you must sacrifice many people's lives for the sake of the future and humanity because that's real life, while FT is all about trying not to sacrifice anyone's future, but if that couldn't be done, oh, fuck that, just don't sacrifice my friends' lives alright?

:/ I once loved Fairy Tail to death and it was the only anime that made me cry more than five times, but as the anime/manga progressed on I stopped crying and losing my tears because they are, to me, turning more and more selfish and Mashima actually supports them.

Oh well.

but their soundtrak is damn good
pennilee: (free)
I feel so heavy... not the overweight kind of leavy, but more like the my-soul-is-heavy type. One of my dreams is to see the world- I want to see the North Pole, see global warming occuring there and large waterfalls coming out from the ice; I want to see the green rolling hills of New Zealand in all its glory; I want to see the streets of Mumbai, India, with people struggling for life and a better tomorrow; I want to see the Strait of Gibraltar, where two lands, two lovers, almost meet but can never touch; I want to see the people of London, England, bustle with everyday life and the Elizabeth Tower overlooking them all; I want to see the Victoria Falls in Zambia/Zimbabwe, Africa, where all of nature's beauty is displayed; I want to see everything, and not with my body, but with my soul. I'd be amazing if I can fly one day, but the most I want is to be able to fly and see the world with my soul. But that requires meditiation, and if I meditate just for that I'd be in trouble.

I feel so heavy. 

nightmare

Jun. 18th, 2013 05:27 pm
pennilee: (FUCK.)
I sold a bunch of super old anime magazines I found in my closet... to an international buyer on EBAY. (dear God) I didn't even realize that I had the intl option on- turns out the priority medium box is FREAKING $60 WTF and I only charged her $20 for shipping. I'm used to giving discounts to my buyers because money has never really been a biiig issue of mine and I can afford to lose a dollar or two here or there, but... $40. DAMN USPS FOR THEIR BIG PRICE BOOST. If it was $40 or maybe even 50 for the shipping I could've managed it, but...

I contacted her about the problem but I think I'm going to have to ship it to her anyway. Welp, there's a $40 I could've used on somewhere else.

i may write more if this is resolved.
edit- opened ebay seller case- wondering what would happen if she declines?
edit- she declined. i asked a family member and she agreed to pay $30- ehhhh, learned my lesson the hard way- never ship things overseas on ebay ever again unless they're light, less-than-100-pages doujins.

she ignored all of my messages for the extra-money requests (i know, my mistake for typing in the wrong shipping cost... but still, i couldn't i mean it WAS FUCKING 40 DOLLARS FUCK DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH THAT IS THAT COULD HAVE PAID FOR AN ENTIRE ORDER FROM JAPAN) but when i finally said to ship it out on sat without any complaints she replied saying, thanks for understanding, still looking forward to item, cheers! Bet she's giving me a negative feedback for me "harassing" her for more money, when in fact I just made a sincere plea for her to forgive a seller's accidental mistakes (and give me some money for HER package so I won't have to wallow in more lack of funds for the next couple weeks. Hell, shipping a 6+ pound package to Australia? Not me original plan)

and, worse, she cheered in front of the seller who lost $40.

i am sooo fucking not forgetting that. >:*

what turned out from emptying my closet came to an ultimate nightmare.

edit: sold my hetalia dvd to a personon ebay as well, just found out that there is a minor crack in the dvd case. Dammit, gotta tell her that too. Wish I sol it to an Ljer, they're much more kind and understanding.

And, oh well, I guess I'm getting some negative feedbacks... not that I go on ebay to buy/sell often, I can just create another account... I... think. If not, I'll just stop shopping on there altogether. I usually buy anime items o there anyway, so I suppose eBay doesn't really mean much to me than a second place for selling my anime items in case they don't sell for a long time here.
pennilee: (accomplish'd)
I feel so terrible- I want to write, but I've barely got the time- when I do I feel like going to sleep or riding my bike. My novel has only begun since I half-finished the planning/plot, so I've barely started. //sigh

Hopefully summer will sweep me over its soft, warm breeze, because my story relies heavily on the heavy summer heat. And to be able to write a story, you must experience what you write.(:
pennilee: (OHMYGODDDDDD)
Wahh, my novel process is going so slow. ;u; I've only just began chapter 1 and it's already at ~2000 words in length. This is going to be a thick novel and I have a long journey ahead of me. XP
pennilee: (free)

So I watched Psycho Pass around a month ago and tbh I still have complicated emotions about it, much like Code Geass but without any notions of pairings or ships or anything romantic. Psycho Pass is, to me, simply an anime that Gen uses to broadcast his ideas and beliefs.

I can't recall much of what I watched now, but after reading this that pretty much summed up all of what I thought about it. Sibyl, the system in which governed Japan and took away free will with full consent from the people, and, essentially humanity in turn for protection and happiness and stability (Brave New World much?). However, I don't think humans can live under Sibyl because without the conventional chaos in society (which doesn't exist in the alternate future of Japan because everything is ensured and controlled by Sibyl, from where you're going to work and live and die and marry the moment you're born) humanity will stagnate and become stupid and dull and will no longer have the will to survive, which basically summed up my belief- the destruction of humanity.

By entrusting your life to others or the government because you cannot handle yourself is exactly what the PP-Japan is doing and doesn't that in essentially take away life's meaning? The moment you're born, your life has already been decided- then what's the meaning for me to live? If I cannot find my own way in life, what's the point? What's the whole point in following people's orders in turn for happiness that might not even actually be my own happiness but the State's happiness? And even if it is, is that real happiness? To live under someone else your whole entire life, being protected by a system of justice that controlls every aspect of life?

Essentially I don't think a society can exist in humanity in the first place because humanity cannot live without chaos- such a society will stagnate and regress because humanity needs progress in order to develop themselves further and without it we will not be humans anymore.

pennilee: (MEGUSTA/ASDFBHKL)
Just got my Miku Meltdown Cosplay and except for the bows in the center (tape... don't know what to say) it looks GORGEOUS. I mean, it fits perfectly, and while it doesn't look as good as the taobao cosplays look, I got mine for $60 which included shipping- so hey I can't say much. :3

NOW TO TABAO LUCAILLE FOR DAT MIKU WIG. <3

ps. the taiwan cosplay has been returned and hopefully they'll refund me the $60 they owe me. ^.^
pss. am sick. ;u; 
pennilee: (hello?)
I've decided to finally purge every doujin and merchandise I don't love from the bottom of my heart in to the sales page in mid/late-April. That includes things that have yet to come to me and things I had been planning to sell earlier. I feel glad, because then I could finally take the load off my shoulders and say goodbye to the doujinshi community/my merch after so long. God, I hate it when I buy doujins then after half an hour later I shove them into the 'to sell' pile. So I've decided to not buy them again to avoid having to go through the burden of selling them, seriously this is getting old.

Adding a BUNCH more items for sale during late April! The final, massive purge to my collection will be then- some items for sale then will be CG doujins and official Knight English-translated anthologies, Hetalia doujins and books [this time there will be Chinese ones as well!], rubber straps [volume 1 of Hetalia- bought then don't want], etc. Maybe even a couple of Magi books if I don't want them. That will be my last sales update because I'm not planning to buy anything else after. Stay tuned!!!

So hopefully some that are looking to purchase things are looking at this page right now because I will be adding a LOT of items from Hetalia and Code Geass, and possibly Magi, but I'm not so sure about that. Stay tuned for my sales update (when it becomes noticeable again since I'm editing it right now and it doesn't look appealing, plus some items haven't arrived yet) and ads into other comms. :)

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