pennilee: (not amused)
I tried to read Fairy Tail once more, but I couldn't. I realized that I'm tired of shouen mangas, like Naruto/One Piece/Fairy Tail, since they're so freaking idealistic. Natsu once said that he would never let anyone sacrifice Lucy's (his friend) future, even though they were in a grave and desperate situation where Rogue accused (incorrectly) of Lucy blocking a very important step in saving the world and wants to kill her. I... on one hand, Natsu trusts his friend very very very much, the other hand he is being very selfish for the world. He is unwilling to sacrifice his friend's future, but willing to kill off the world' future? And, of course, in the end, everything works out well.

I guess this is not the type of manga for me then, because I hate it when people are so selfish and well the author himself supports this type of view, portraying them in a just light, and I'm just ugh.

Maybe that's why I prefer Shingeki no Kyojin 1000x than FT? Well, those two animes conflict in terms of values in so many different ways lol but the thing is that Shingeki is realistic in terms of battling methods- you must sacrifice many people's lives for the sake of the future and humanity because that's real life, while FT is all about trying not to sacrifice anyone's future, but if that couldn't be done, oh, fuck that, just don't sacrifice my friends' lives alright?

:/ I once loved Fairy Tail to death and it was the only anime that made me cry more than five times, but as the anime/manga progressed on I stopped crying and losing my tears because they are, to me, turning more and more selfish and Mashima actually supports them.

Oh well.

but their soundtrak is damn good
pennilee: (free)
I feel so heavy... not the overweight kind of leavy, but more like the my-soul-is-heavy type. One of my dreams is to see the world- I want to see the North Pole, see global warming occuring there and large waterfalls coming out from the ice; I want to see the green rolling hills of New Zealand in all its glory; I want to see the streets of Mumbai, India, with people struggling for life and a better tomorrow; I want to see the Strait of Gibraltar, where two lands, two lovers, almost meet but can never touch; I want to see the people of London, England, bustle with everyday life and the Elizabeth Tower overlooking them all; I want to see the Victoria Falls in Zambia/Zimbabwe, Africa, where all of nature's beauty is displayed; I want to see everything, and not with my body, but with my soul. I'd be amazing if I can fly one day, but the most I want is to be able to fly and see the world with my soul. But that requires meditiation, and if I meditate just for that I'd be in trouble.

I feel so heavy. 

Repost ;u;

Apr. 5th, 2013 06:52 pm
pennilee: (free)
Saw this on [livejournal.com profile] kanon99's profile and I just had to repost it. Enjoy, be you Christian, Buddhist, Muslim, Jew, Hindu, or any other religion. <3

PLEASE READ.
please read for a little heartwarm. )
pennilee: (hello?)
I've decided to finally purge every doujin and merchandise I don't love from the bottom of my heart in to the sales page in mid/late-April. That includes things that have yet to come to me and things I had been planning to sell earlier. I feel glad, because then I could finally take the load off my shoulders and say goodbye to the doujinshi community/my merch after so long. God, I hate it when I buy doujins then after half an hour later I shove them into the 'to sell' pile. So I've decided to not buy them again to avoid having to go through the burden of selling them, seriously this is getting old.

Adding a BUNCH more items for sale during late April! The final, massive purge to my collection will be then- some items for sale then will be CG doujins and official Knight English-translated anthologies, Hetalia doujins and books [this time there will be Chinese ones as well!], rubber straps [volume 1 of Hetalia- bought then don't want], etc. Maybe even a couple of Magi books if I don't want them. That will be my last sales update because I'm not planning to buy anything else after. Stay tuned!!!

So hopefully some that are looking to purchase things are looking at this page right now because I will be adding a LOT of items from Hetalia and Code Geass, and possibly Magi, but I'm not so sure about that. Stay tuned for my sales update (when it becomes noticeable again since I'm editing it right now and it doesn't look appealing, plus some items haven't arrived yet) and ads into other comms. :)
pennilee: (concerned)
I have a confession to make.

Well, to begin, has anyone ever felt terrible when they look at their merchandises and doujins and see stacks of them on the bookshelves/displays? I mean, I keep track of my order and precisely how much I spend, and, really, I've been spending A LOT over this 8 months since I was introduced to the selling/trading community on LJ. And by that, I mean $500+. I'm too scared to pinpoint exactly how much I've been spending.

I feel terrible. This, I believe, must stop soon and if I keep doing this I'll fall into huge debt/make my life miserable. And that's not very pretty. I've been emptying my savings and... that's not good. So yeah. I'm being too wasteful, in short, and I should've known better than to be sucked up into buying all these items, only to sell them out at a much lower price and don't care later.

There.

after I receive a couple of more items I'm planning on reselling (bought a box of straps I no longer want) , I will no longer be purchasing doujins at all and will quit being a [livejournal.com profile] hetalia_sell member and any other selling communities, and will turn my attention to scanlations ONLY. I will also no longer be so active on LJ, Hetalia, and any other fandoms.

Oh, how I lose my mind in the things I love... it's scary and intimidating, now that I look back and see the destruction I caused over my desire. 
pennilee: (DERP)
So I saw Secondo Dolce by はこにわ  in a sales post today. I immediately reached for it but found that someone else already asked for it and then paid for it. AND IT WAS AT SUCH A GOOD PRICE AND GOD IT LOOKED BEAUTIFUL IN THE SALES POST BVNFDKSBVOJHDFKSLHCJXCS

//dies
//and dies
//over and over again

FUCK. FUCKING FUCKITY FUCK JUST WHEN IT WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME jiobfjd and the person was only 10 mins ahead of me... I SHOULDN'T HAVE SCROLLED THE SALES PAGE AT SUCH A LEISURELY LEVEL. I SHOULD HAVE IMMEDIATELY SAY I WANT 57. NAO.

why. why. it's going to be a billion years before I can find another person selling that masterpeice again.

GOD MY HEART BROKE INTO A BILLION PIECES. >3

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